We all can imagine how it feels to see one’s name in the final list. Some of our members have shared their feeling on Quest. One such old user is wunwun , also known as Sepoy No 44 and IWRA – An avid forum member – with public administration as an optional. He has shared his feelings with us and here it is, in his own words
Location: Barmer, somewhere in Thar desert.
I was in the daily evening meeting with my bosses where we plan, do and review ( They call it PDR meeting) the various jobs. We were in the cabin of our big boss. He was taking updates, asking questions, cross-questions. I was of course checking the mobile and live updates from Dholpur house( Thanks to that telegram group). I was least interested in the meeting.
In the five minutes of the meeting, the PDF was uploaded. I downloaded the PDF and for a moment my heart skipped several beats. This was it. In next few minutes my fate was to be decided. By this time, I have totally forgotten what my bosses and colleagues were discussing. I went through the first page and could not find my name. I sensed the similar deja-vu like last year. I was sad. I went to the 2nd page and there it was ..I did not have to scroll more. I couldn’t believe that I was there. I checked again, matched my roll no… That’s it…that was me( Rank 54). I had made it. I was stunned for few seconds, looked at my bosses, my colleagues and still not able to make what they were discussing.
Now I was in dilemma, how do I get out of this room without telling them, and without disturbing the meeting. And my excitement was too high to keep me there in the room. So, I had to intervene…I said..” Sorry sir to intervene, but I have to go. I have qualified civil services exam with all India rank 54. I need to go downstairs and talk to my parents”…I could sense their astonishment. The meeting came to a halt and they were shocked ( they were hearing this for the first time, I have kept my UPSC journey a secret for 6 years there).
They allowed me to go, visibly surprised
I went downstairs, and call my mother first..” Maa, Mai collector ban Gaya”! I could sense the happiness and proud in her voice. ?
IAS Batch 2018, Rank 54